Anchors Aweigh!

It's time to start a new beginning, here's the new me. Officially a United States Navy Sailor! <3

So tonight I told my whole family the plans Trever and I have. To say the least it really didnt go over well. Before I go into my rantings I have to be honest about something.. for the past few months Ive been thinking really hard about my decison to enlist, whether or not its really the right choice for me. However, I didnt tell anyone that. I feel ashamed. I dont know if I truly ever grasped what I got myself into when I enlisted. I went in wanting to do medical, and came out convinced I was the perfect person to be a Nuclear Engineer. Hell, maybe I am! But Im starting to think that maybe I got caught up in the anticipation of it all... waiting to get approved to enlist, getting a high ASVAB score and everyone being amazed at it, maybe I just really felt the need to stand out and be my own person. I honestly have no idea. But back to tonight.. my whole family told me they didnt support the decison he and I made. One of my sisters went as far as to say she wouldnt be at the wedding.. I was bawling the whole time. They think its too soon. They think I dont know him enough. They think I should wait. Ive always had a hard time telling people what I wanted and being firm about it. Im a people pleaser and I would always make my decisons based off what others wanted me to do. I really really struggled with that tonight. After everything went down and my family told me how they felt about he marriage and me being in the Navy, I called Trever and we talked for nearly 3 hours. In the beginning of the conversation I was still pretty hysterical, but like always, he was able to calm me down. I could go on forever about what happened tonight, but I think the bottom line is that I need to think. I need to think about what I really want, not what others want from me or what they expect me to do. I need to put my foot down and make myself happy. I need to decide if I still truly want to go into the Navy or piss off my family and get married when I want to or piss of my fiance to the point where he wont want to try anymore because I keep making my life decisons based on what others want. I wish there was an easy solution to all this.

Help please?? :/

quite important news.

Well everyone, I havent updated in quite some time but I thought I would come back and let you all know that... I'm getting married! Haha kinda crazy right? I may be young, and so might my fiance, but I'm a deep believer in love, and if you know in your heart that that person is the one and they feel the exact same way.. well then what are you waiting for?? I looked at my old posts from a year ago.. I was so unhappy! I was chasing after a love that I once had, which looking back now its so hard to see why I was so strung up on that guy. With Trever, I dont feel afraid. I dont feel like he could up and leave in an instant. In fact, I feel like I'm getting more love in return from him than I'm actually giving. You know how they always say, fall in love with someone who loves you more than you love them. Now that can sound really bad at the same time, because the love I feel for him is so.. immense that I cant even begin to put it into words. From the very beginning our relationship was quite unorthodox by normal standards. But who can really put a standard on love? Because I'll be leaving for the Navy in June, just 101 days!, we've decided to do a small family ceremony when he comes up here at the beginning of April. We're going to have a big fancy wedding once my 2 years of training is over. Yes we know its going to be very hard, yes we know we're young, yes we know we're doing this very fast, but wouldnt you do anything for love? <3

Change is a funny thing. We’re never quite sure what we’re becoming, or why. Then, one day we look at ourselves and wonder who we are and how we got there.

I don't want a perfect relationship. I just want someone who I can act silly with, someone who treats me well and loves being with me.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have or could have had. No one lives forever.

Very gently and quietly, almost as if it were the blood singing in her veins, or the water of the stream running over stones, she became conscious of a new feeling within her. She wondered, for a moment, what it was; and then, she said to herself --with a little surprise at recognizing in her own person so famous a thing-- this is happiness.

Well you, you make my dreams come true. <3

one day this person will just waltz into your life and it will feel like he was always supposed to be there, like all of a sudden a big gapping hole in your life, that you didnt even know existed, will fill up with him. he'll make you forget all of the pain you went through in the past and think of only what the future will be like.. with him. <3

So if you're going to fall, you better fall hard. Fear nothing. And if you're going to love, you better love hard. Hold nothing back.

I learned the real meaning of love.  Love is absolute loyalty.  People fade, looks fade, but loyalty never fades.  You can depend so much on certain people, you can set your watch by them.  And that's love, even if it doesn't seem very exciting.  

I believe we write our own stories and each time we think we know the ending, we don’t. Perhaps luck exists somewhere between the world of chance and peace that comes from knowing you just can’t know it all. You know, life’s funny that way. Once you let go of the wheel. You might end up right where you belong.

Im gonna say it.. I absolutely love that man.

Life is GREAT! :]
1. My weekend in Kentucky with Trever feels like an amazing dream
2. I swear he is my other half
3. We have so many of the same mannerisms, we would do or say the exact same thing at the same time so many times!
4. He is absolutely adorable
5. Its like all of a sudden Im whole again, it may sound corny, but he completes me :]
6. Hes coming up to meet my family in 9 days!!
7. I am beyond excited... and happy. Happier than I could ever imagine
8. Did I mention I was happy? :)